There are some great things about this lifestyle: the benefits and job security just to name a couple. However, the real downside is me raising our family alone. Knowing how much he's missing out on is really taking it's toll on Pat's happiness. Being so isolated and lonely is wearing me down too. There are also a lot of other issues leading to a bit of unhappiness with Pat's career right now for both of us, but I won't go into them here.
There is definitely a part of me that wants the normal life where Pat comes home from work and we eat dinner together, or spend weekends as a family. Pat and I both would like me to be at home with the children until they enter school. A major question is what would Pat do if he did get out? That question brings the scary thought of starting all over again in the civilian world.
I really don't know what I want in this situation. We have quite a bit of time to think, so we don't have to make our minds up anytime soon. All I do know is that I want to be a family again.