I was feeling really low. When I tuck the boys into bed at night, I'm moody. I wake up cranky and I go to bed even more cranky. It's not how I want to live. I felt like I could cry at any minute.
And then things changed. After dropping Ryan off at school Leah took at decent nap. I was able to scrub the table, wash the dishes, and vacuum the floors, all of which were well overdue. I think the good thing about being a poor housekeeper is that when I finally do get around to cleaning it makes such a huge difference. And when the house is clean I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.
The weather was also pretty nice. It was windy but a nice warm 60 degrees. After picking Ryan up from school we took a short walk through the neighborhood and then played out front. A little fresh air was much needed for all of us, and it was the first time in days where I was able to slow down and really focus on just the kids.
It's funny how these two little things, cleaning and getting outside to play, replenished my spirit. I needed a lift. I needed something to help me feel like my life was under control. We all needed a change from our routine. Just when I thought I couldn't take any more, I found relief through two very simple things. For that sense of relief I am so very thankful and it could not have come at a more needed time.
5 comments:
I can only imagine how hard it is to manage things solo, girl... But I really think you're doing a great job! Hang in there! Keep smiling. :) XOXO!
it is so nice when those little things pull through! I was talking to my sis in law today whose husband just returned from a 9 month deployment (she has 3 boys under 6) and she told me the weirdest adjustment has been that she no longer wakes up wondering how she is going to make it through the day!
Thank goodness for small relief at just the right moment. It's those little clearings that keep us going when times are tough.
I am so glad to hear that you were able to see a rainbow through the clouds Shelly. It's difficult doing things alone when your husband is away and then it doesn't help when we don't feel right either. Sometimes it is the little things that help to show us perspective and what truly matters. Take some time for yourself at night when the kids are in bed even if it is just painting your nails :) I hope you continue to see the happy little moments during each and every day xo
So glad to hear that you got the lift you needed!! I'm always amazed at how much those "little" things help!
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