It broke my heart even further when the flooring guy came by yesterday to measure and Ryan says to him, "Do you want to play with some of my toys? I have some really cool ones." The older gentleman just kind of looked at Ryan and returned to his work. My poor kid just seems desperate for friends.
I know that a lot of the blame is on me. Part of the reason we are all lacking friends is because I am very introverted and shy. I know those are not good qualities, and I try to fight them. I've made many efforts to meet people, but there have not been many friendships that naturally came about.
I was recently pouring my heart out to my husband on this subject. He was reminding me that things could be the same even after we move. While I know that is true, I am choosing to be optimistic that maybe we'll have a neighborhood with little kids or we'll make friends from Ryan's new school, or even find friends in Pat's new co-workers. One thing I know for sure though is that we'll be near our family. They will be able to come to birthday parties, and we can have play dates with the cousins.
While I hope we find even more friends than just our family, I am so looking forward being able to share our lives with the people we love. Until we get there I will try my best to fill the voids that exist for my kids and just hope that they do not feel the loneliness that is here.