Hello blog friends. I cannot believe how long it has been since I wrote a real post. Well, actually I can since I've been ill for the past few days, but I think I'm on the mend now. I flew back to TN on Monday. Pat was with me, but still, flying with two little kids and not feeling well is no fun.
I feel so lucky that I was able to spend 3 weeks with my family in New England. I am definitely sad to be back in TN. I really enjoyed spending time with family, and the kids thrived on all the attention they received. It really made me start to think about what I want in my life.
When I grew up and pictured married life, I never thought I'd live too far from family. I thought I'd see them on holidays and for BBQs. That isn't my life now though. Pat and I have very different relationships with our families. I like spending time with my family and value our relationships not just as blood relatives but also like friendships. I've been trying to explain this to Pat for years, but in his mind he thinks the desire to be near family = dependence. I think he's slowly starting to understand that I WANT to be with family rather than NEED to be with family.
One of the things I hate about Pat's job is how inflexible it is with regard to where we live. It is hard coming back to TN because I don't really feel like there is anything here for me. It's nice to have my own house again after sharing a room with the boys for 3 weeks, but it's lonely too. And I have I mentioned how nice the weather up North is compared to TN?
Do you ever wish you lived somewhere else? How do you deal with those feelings?