Today is Ryan's first day of school this year. We decided to send him to school 3 mornings a week. I still feel like that is too much, but I know my feelings are selfish in that I don't want him away from me that much. However, I think interacting with other kids 3 days a week will be good for him. We've never had many friends here, so sending him to school is giving him the social life that I cannot provide for him.
A few days after I gave birth to Ryan the baby blues hit me, and boy did they hit me hard. I must have gone a week crying at the drop of a hat because I didn't want my baby to grow up. I felt like with every passing day he was getting ready to be a grown up and leave me. As the days seem to be passing so quickly right now, I'm feeling an increasing sadness that he's growing up so fast. I just want to freeze time. I know that isn't possible though, so I'm just going to cherish every single moment with both my boys before they don't want to play with me any more.
First Day Last Year (2010)