In all honesty, I'm not happy right now. There are certain aspects of my live that bring me incredible joy, like my two sons. They are completely amazing, and I would not trade spending my days with them for anything. However, it's the rest of what's around me that is bringing me down. I feel like I need a change, but I'm stuck in a holding pattern. And something that is making it worse is that Pat seems to be very content in the stick in the mud status quo. He almost seems resistant to change despite my insistence that it is something I (maybe even we) NEED. I feel as though I talk about this constantly and yet he isn't listening.
My feelings of unhappiness are bringing my spirit down. I am finding that I'm in a bad mood a lot lately. That is something I regret with every ounce of my being because my children deserve a fun and happy mother. I tell myself everyday that tomorrow will be a happy one, but I'm letting things that I cannot change color the rest of it.
I need to put a stop to it. I need to remember The Serenity Prayer:
I may be feeling stuck now and have to accept that right now I cannot change that. But I must also encourage myself that when the opportunity for change arises I must courageously take that leap of faith.
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