October 31, 2012

Alone

Last night I was feeling sad and restless. I am excited to celebrate Halloween with the kids tonight, but I hate that Pat is missing ANOTHER event with the kids. I am really missing having my husband around and being a team raising the kids.

I know that we are only apart for 12 weeks this time, but I am anxious to start our new life together in our new home. I feel like we've been apart so much that I am just waiting to finally relax and know that he isn't going any where.

Does it make me a bad mom that I am not able to enjoy my kids like I should when I am all alone caring for everyone and everything by myself? That is something I've struggled with so much and have not conquered. I hate that I am so busy and overwhelmed that I cannot just enjoy the greatest blessings that are right in front of me.  I constantly try to remind myself that each moment is so precious, and I cannot get this time back.

I guess I just sometimes forget to listen to my own advice.


2 comments:

PalouseMom said...

You already know this... but it does not make you a bad Mom... Some days get the better of us - don't forget that hormones are still coming back on track after having Leah!! It's hard doing it alone (even when you know it's short-lived)!!

blm said...

Wishing you strength and patience as you adjust to your new home!

P.S. I nominated you for a Liebster Award over on my blog. :)

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