December 10, 2011

What I haven't been saying

I know I have been neglecting my blog.  My updates have been a bit half hearted.  I'm going to explain what's been going on now.

I'm about 12 weeks pregnant.  It's great news.  We are so happy and excited.  I still feel really nervous and even cringe a little about typing it out for the world to see.

But it's also been hard.  I've been sick.  I'm a lucky one that doesn't vomit (most of the time), but that doesn't equal feeling good.  I feel nauseous all day long.  I feel like I want to be sick.  I feel yucky.  I feel emotionally unstable.  I almost feel depressed between the emotions and the physical effects.  I know it sounds really woe is me and all, but it's the truth of how I've been feeling.

I was really looking forward to pregnancy again.  Since this is possibly our last pregnancy I promised myself that I would be so grateful and try to enjoy every moment and milestone of the pregnancy.  While I am so very grateful for this pregnancy, I have come to realize I am not a woman that enjoys pregnancy.    I'm not trying to convince anyone to feel bad for me.  I am lucky and I know that, but it's been a bit hard the past few months so that is why I haven't been around much.

As I said I'm still really nervous.  We've heard the heartbeat, and I saw the baby yesterday.  Maybe I'll post that story later.
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13 comments:

mygoalissimple.com said...

Congratulations! Do not feel bad about being so sick and not blogging. I was so sick with my pregnancy and unable to function as a normal person. That is part of the reason why we're hesitant to try for #2. It can be so frustrating to be so sick during which should be such an exciting time. Congratulations again!

Ash@Life As Lucy said...

Congratulations and I completely agree! I'm now almost 35 weeks and after trying so hard and long to get pregnant I have decided we are done. This pregnancy has been a nightmare and so hard on me mentally and physically. I am very grateful but at the same time, pregnancy isn't all rainbows and sunshines. We get it so don't beat yourself up for what you are feeling!!

Julie @ Soldier's Wife, Crazy Life said...

Congratulations! I never enjoyed pregnancy either. The third was the hardest for me. Maybe because I knew it was the last time I had to go through it. I hope you can enjoy the next few months.

Erin said...

Congratulations!!!

Alison said...

I knew it!!!! CONGRATULATIONS! We are all so happy for you, and I hope you start to feel better soon! YAY!

bean said...

Oh, congratulations Shelly! I had a feeling this announcement coming when you mentioned a month or so ago that you had a lot on your heart and mind. This is happy news! I look forward to reading all your posts about it in the months to come.

Lisa said...

Congratulations! I'm very happy for you!

AnNaRicHiE said...

Congratulations Shelly! that is a great blessing. Gods gift.
I am the same way,I do not like to have a big belly.

Our Little Fam said...

Congratulations!! Hope you start feeling better and not so sick

The Fischer Family said...

Congratulations Shelly! That is great news, but I totally understand where you are! I've never been one who enjoys pregnancy either! And I usually accuse women who say things like "Oh I've never felt better!!!" when they are pregnant as being liars! lol- I hope things start to get better for you as you enter into your 2nd trimester.

Poekitten said...

Congrats Shelly! I totally understand...that's why I haven't been blogging very much as well:)

The New "Normal" said...

Congratulations!! I'm sorry that you are not feeling well. :( It's so hard to not feel good when you want to enjoy it so much. I hope that you feel better soon!

KERRY said...

Hi Shelly! I don't know how I missed this post? But a big congratulations on your pregnancy!!! I hope you are feeling better by now. How exciting, a new little one!!

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