I know I have been neglecting my blog. My updates have been a bit half hearted. I'm going to explain what's been going on now.
I'm about 12 weeks pregnant. It's great news. We are so happy and excited. I still feel really nervous and even cringe a little about typing it out for the world to see.
But it's also been hard. I've been sick. I'm a lucky one that doesn't vomit (most of the time), but that doesn't equal feeling good. I feel nauseous all day long. I feel like I want to be sick. I feel yucky. I feel emotionally unstable. I almost feel depressed between the emotions and the physical effects. I know it sounds really woe is me and all, but it's the truth of how I've been feeling.
I was really looking forward to pregnancy again. Since this is possibly our last pregnancy I promised myself that I would be so grateful and try to enjoy every moment and milestone of the pregnancy. While I am so very grateful for this pregnancy, I have come to realize I am not a woman that enjoys pregnancy. I'm not trying to convince anyone to feel bad for me. I am lucky and I know that, but it's been a bit hard the past few months so that is why I haven't been around much.
As I said I'm still really nervous. We've heard the heartbeat, and I saw the baby yesterday. Maybe I'll post that story later.