April 15, 2010
Removing the Band-Aid
Last night Pat came home from work with news that he won't be deploying as early as we thought. We now have about 2 addition weeks with him at home. He is no longer going ADVON, but he's still going to be gone a full year. While this is good news, there is definitely a part of me that is ready to tear this band-aid off and get the deployment started. One of the hardest parts of a deployment is the anticipation that you live through in the weeks leading up to it. Do not get me wrong, I am very thankful for having all this extra time with him home, but in certain ways the dread of the deployment colors that time. We try not to let it, but inevitably it remains in the back of our minds. In some ways I'm eager for him to go already because the sooner we get it started, the sooner he'll be coming home. While I wish he didn't have to go at all, I know it is his job and duty, and I am so very proud of him. I am glad that we'll have a couple weeks to get settled back down after block leave before he goes now instead of just days like we thought. I will do my best to enjoy every moment with him by my side.