October 7, 2008

Embarrassed

Yesterday I realized that I should probably be embarrassed at how I look most of the time.  I realized this on my way out to pick up diapers.  I looked in the review mirror and really saw myself.  My hair, which I've already said needs a cut, was pulled back in its constant ponytail with many fly-aways.  My eyebrows, which again need work like I've said, look awful.  I had no makeup on and looked totally washed out.  My plain gray t-shirt isn't bad, but really just looks like it belongs in a gym or as pajamas, and my jeans which can be taken off without unbuttoning or unzipping probably need to be put into the back of the closet.  This is how I go about most days.  I definitely think the biggest reason for my lack of effort and care is that I'm not going to see anyone I know....I don't know anyone.  How will I be able to look put together when Pat returns if I don't practice now?  If my parents get a chance to come visit when they plan, I'm hoping to get my hair and eyebrows taken care of then.  I have my favorite pair of jeans just waiting to be worn, but I always hesitate wearing them now because I don't want to wear them out.  I don't really feel embarrassed about how I look, but sometimes I wonder if I should.  After writing part of this entry this morning I had a bunch of motivation to go out to the store and try to look presentable.  However, it ended up being a dark, rainy day here and I decided it was better to just sit inside in sweats today.  There is always tomorrow.  

1 comment:

Robyn Mroszczyk, AFC said...

Shelly,

You need to take care of yourself if not for anyone else but for yourself. I guarantee if you go and get yourself "beautified" (even though you are already beautiful and I am so envious of your hair!) you will feel so much better. Who cares if you don't have anyone to run into? I never see anyone that I know during the day, but I love to get dressed up and go out with my little guy. It is like I am on a little day with the little guy. Why not put Ryan in daycare one day (use your free hours!) and get your hair and eyebrows done? I really think that you should!!!

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