The End of an Era

Today is the first day in 14.5 months that I did not nurse Ryan.  It is a very sad and emotional day for me.  I knew it was time, but it is still hard to accept.  I've been weaning Ryan since Pat came home, and tonight I cut out his last feeding (bedtime).  Next Saturday Pat and I have a formal to go to.  We are very lucky that my sister is flying out to watch Ryan for us, and I knew I wouldn't be able to nurse him that night, so we decided to complete the weaning process.  I am proud that I breast fed for 14.5 months, but I also knew that no matter when I ended, it would be hard.  Ryan has adjusted really well, and by next weekend he'll hopefully go to bed really easily for his Auntie Rie.  As I re-read what I've already typed, I don't think my words convey how hard this is for me. I cried last night after putting him to sleep because I realized that I will probably never nurse my little boy again.  It really is the end of an era...

On a separate note, today is Valentine's Day!  Happy Valentine's day everyone!  It was pretty much a regular day here in our house.  I'm such a bad wife because I didn't buy Pat a gift.  I did make him Oreo Truffles and cooked a dinner that he really likes.  Pat on the other hand is a generous and caring husband.  He bought me a whole cake decorating set.  The other weekend we were walking around Hobby Lobby just exploring all the cool things they have.  When we got to the baking supplies aisle, I mentioned how I've always wanted cake decorating tools because I fantasize about being a good cake decorator.  So Pat remembered me saying that and bought me a very perfect gift.  I look forward to trying new things with it in the near future.  If I'm able to make anything nice, I'll definitely post some photos on the blog.  Now I'm off to cuddle on the couch with Pat and our dogs and watch some tv from our DVR.  I hope you are all having a very loved day!