After stepping away from my blog and most social media, it became clear to me that if I were to reenter the blogosphere and other outlets, it would have to be in a self-controlled way. Blogs (and other social media, but I'll just focus on blogs for the sake of writing) affect me in one of two ways.
Sometimes they bring out one of my flaws, which is jealousy. I find that occasionally I am jealous of the life I read about on other blogs, about their well maintained home, perfect kids, new babies, date nights, fashion, craftiness, or really anything. Some blogs strike me as places where people brag or blog for money purposes. While that is fine for them, I don't think I want that kind of influence in my life. I'm looking for more.
The other ways blogs can affect me is by making me want to improve myself. They give me ideas of activities for my kids, inspire me to be a better mom or wife, motivate me to get out of my sweat pants, reaffirm my faith, and remind me to be thankful for everyday. This is where I want to focus my time. After all there is so little free time in my life, I don't want to waste it.
So what does this all mean? First, I am blogging for me. I don't care if it is popular or really even if people read it. I want to write it, and that is all that matters to me. Also that I want to read the blogs that inspire me or where I feel like I have a connection to the writer. I want those personal connections. I am so thankful for the genuine people that I get to meet in the blog world. I know I have not been reading or commenting on your blogs for a while, but I promise I am trying to make my way back. Thank you for being patient with me.