I was feeling really low. When I tuck the boys into bed at night, I'm moody. I wake up cranky and I go to bed even more cranky. It's not how I want to live. I felt like I could cry at any minute.
And then things changed. After dropping Ryan off at school Leah took at decent nap. I was able to scrub the table, wash the dishes, and vacuum the floors, all of which were well overdue. I think the good thing about being a poor housekeeper is that when I finally do get around to cleaning it makes such a huge difference. And when the house is clean I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.
The weather was also pretty nice. It was windy but a nice warm 60 degrees. After picking Ryan up from school we took a short walk through the neighborhood and then played out front. A little fresh air was much needed for all of us, and it was the first time in days where I was able to slow down and really focus on just the kids.
It's funny how these two little things, cleaning and getting outside to play, replenished my spirit. I needed a lift. I needed something to help me feel like my life was under control. We all needed a change from our routine. Just when I thought I couldn't take any more, I found relief through two very simple things. For that sense of relief I am so very thankful and it could not have come at a more needed time.